Paralysis

 

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Paralysis

Some days, I want to speak
I want to say
Hey
How you doing?

Some days, I almost call
And then it hits me
Doubt
Paralysis

What if
I say the wrong thing?
What if
I just annoy you?
What if
You’re hoping I never call again?

So I stay silent
And then you ask
Why
I never call you
Why
It takes so long to reply
Why
You were always last on my list

Somedays, I want to speak the truth
Tell you why
Set both of us free
But paralysis makes it so much easier to lie

© Red


On Your Own

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On Your Own

You took me out into the wilderness
Left me to find my own way back
Judged me when I lost my way
Now you want to tread my path
This road is mine, and mine alone
You’ll have to find your own way home

© Red


Smokescreen

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Smokescreen

This thing you call intelligence
Holds no self-awareness
Spitting venom in all directions
To cover up your frailties
True intelligence exists
Without the need to make others feel stupid

© Red


Scars

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Scars

Invisible tattoo
Still inked upon my skin
Stains only I can see
Remind me who I used to be

Unhealable scars
Underneath the surface
Jagged edges bleed through
Remind me what you used to do

© Red


Just Another Day

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Just Another Day

Stay in bed ’til the sun goes down
No reason to open the blinds
Nothing new to see from here
Still the same old scene outside

Hiding from the knock at the door
Pretending not to be home
Switch the world to silent mode
Too tired today to answer the phone

© Red


Choices

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Choices

Caught up
In the way things used to be
The way things should’ve been

Playing the victim
Always someone else’s fault
Always something new to blame

Stand up
Before it’s too late
No-one else will rescue you

Choose a direction
The long road of courage
Or the familiar path of hate

© Red


Kyrielle Poem ~ Slipping Away

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Slipping Away

It’s getting too hard to hold on
Fading a little more each day
Whoever I was has long gone
The real world is slipping away

Unspoken truths poison my soul
Words I wish I knew how to say
Silent screams fill the empty hole
The real world is slipping away

Daydreaming of some other time
Always a heavy price to pay
Memories that used to be mine
The real world is slipping away

© Red


Scattered

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Scattered

A million thoughts fused into one

Same old movie playing on repeat

Unspoken words won’t clear from my throat

Fragments of nightmares that used to be real

© Red


Etheree Poem ~ Illusion

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Illusion

Stop
Don’t go
Didn’t mean
those things I said.
Until tomorrow
when I’ll say them again.
Better to send you away
than wait ’til you see the real me
and discover I’m not what you thought.
Just a cheap replica of what you want.

© Red


Septolet Poem ~ Below

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Below

Fears
buried deep
continue to grow
unseen, unchecked

Veneer
hollow cover
Decay breeds underneath.

© Red